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Tuesday, September 25, 2007
im having cls now.. and this is the first time im so bored that i have to start blogging to keep myself awake.. and i cant believe how time move so slowly now.. and so fast ystd night! =( save me~~

anyway, since im so freaking bored now.. that i will just give an update..

life in smu has been hectic, and it could be unbearable at times. the amount of slp is kept to the minimal. every week, we are just trying to complete the assignment due next week.. so yeah. ive join the choir club in smu and im now officially a "choirboy".. lol! but well.. i dunno how much i like it.. hopefully the interest will grow stronger and better..

everything is moving positively well.. althou, at times, there are some struggles within myself. however, i remain optimistic abt everything. and i hope things will only keep improving for us.

-end
just a short update.
posted by graky @ 9:27 AM   0 comments
release me.
Sunday, September 23, 2007
seriously. i think no one can feel my heart now. im seriously losing direction of where im heading to. sometimes, i feel good. at times, i dunno wat the hell is wrong. this battle is getting the best out of me. im losing sense. sitting here in front of my laptop, feeling lost and totally no interest to continue on my paper that im supposed to submit tml. i just feel like lying on my bed, doing nothing, thinking nothing, letting the world go past me, without me knowing.

will u hold me tight tomorrow and tell me things will be alright.
posted by graky @ 9:15 PM   0 comments
where?
Monday, September 10, 2007
i dunno where this is leading me to.. all i can do is to open my mind, my heart and my eyes..

keeping my fingers crossed, hoping things will be fine..



im simple, really. like everyone, i just wanna be happy. :)
posted by graky @ 3:14 AM   0 comments
Tuesday, September 04, 2007




i've decided to add in this entry before i go take my nap..

last sat was prob one of the worst all my life.. sam, one of the closest friend in poly had committed suicide.. yes.. i mean it.. and im not the sort that like to joke on such issues.. it was a terrible weekend to pass.. it was difficult to accept the truth.. it was afterall sam.. the one i spent my time in class talking nonsense to.. the one that grow thru my poly life and even ending up in the same platoon during our bmtc..
i last saw him 3 weeks ago and he was fine.. and now.. hes gone.. all my life.. i din even thought of this happening to one of my friend.. everything happened so suddenly, that it hurts badly.. my immune system went down upon hearing the news and i still cant believe he did it.. and i can still hear myself screaming and asking why did he do it.. why din he come and talk to me.. why...

things could have been different..

when i last saw him on sun, it was the hardest ever glance i had to take.. i believe.. it was the hardest i felt all my life.. there are still so much more things that we could do together.. so much..

but i hope, if this is the option that he had chosen, with loving memories, sam, i hope u found the peace u seek for.. and u will always be remembered.. for the time we spent in lessons and out.. when crapping and laughing.. sam, may u rest in peace.
posted by graky @ 1:43 PM   3 comments
a month..
Saturday, September 01, 2007
its been a month since i last update.. well.. thoughts of shutting this blog did cross my mind since im so inactive in blogging because of my crazy schedule.. i have been really really really busy.. with sch.. with everything.. i cant seem to have enough sleep everyday.. sch's been good.. although it was busy.. but i kinda enjoy it.. i hope i can do well.. well.. im just trying to be really optimistic :)

anyway.. i just went for the movie rataroullie with xinwei.. sent her home after that.. and yeah.. walk myself home.. during which.. i was thinking about my life now.. all that i could derive is that im happy with my life now.. the only thing that im really disappointed abt is prob matters pertaining to my heart..

i nv seem to be able to control that portion.. well.. sometimes, i feel that i wun be able to at all.. its quite a bad feeling.. but yeah.. thats how im feeling.. after so much up and down.. down and up.. im tired.. tired of feelings.. tired of wanting a relationship.. tired of waiting.. tired of looking for suitable ppl.. im tired... i think sometime, it is just me.. there is no doubt that i have to be patient to wait for the right one.. but who is the right one.. how do they even look like? and most importantly.. why are they the right one?

many thoughts crossed my mind when i was walking back.. my school work is piling up.. its crazy.. but i think it could be like my ecstacy.. maybe they could keep me out of the want to be in a relationship.. maybe.. i shld just really not think abt it.. i feel... that 85% of myself have already given up finding the one.. and the rest of 15% probably wun last me long.. and it could really be the case that i remain a bachelor even when im 40yo :)

it doesnt really matter.. does it? :)
posted by graky @ 4:12 AM   0 comments
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