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looking back: 2005
Saturday, December 31, 2005
looking back at year 2005.. i think things changed towards the end of the year.. i managed to overcome alot of thoughts that have been bugging mi for a long time..

at the start of the year.. i was depressed.. and as time moved by.. i got worst... i wasnt able to overcome myself.. my thoughts and my emotions.. i let it sank deeper and deeper.. it was the darkest days of my life...

i nv imagined things like that could ever happen to mi.. well.. maybe i really take things too hard.. and were really too emotional in my ways of handling things..

amazingly.. i changed my life in one day.. one decision and one determination.. i concluded that i must get things on the right track.. there wasnt anymore room for mi to keep sinking and sinking.. im bored of sinking.. i nid to get a life and make full use of it..

i think one's life is really full of choices and the determination to fulfill the choice.. my life have changed becos of a simple reason.. i was decisive and determined at the moment of choice.. and i made it eventually..

moving on to 2006.. i hope things will just get better and better.. and for those managed to show a little concern to mi during those moments.. be it family or friends.. i thank u for that..

my new yr resolution?

make a guess... till then.. seeya!
posted by graky @ 4:41 PM  
its NS
Monday, December 26, 2005

tHe pAsT 3 MoNtHsss..
this is a long entry.. do endure!
well.. life could have been more simple if i havent choose to be in ocs.. but i made the choice and volunteer to be mentally and physically tortured.. haha!
for the past 3 months, i wake up everyday looking out of the window praying that it is raining so that the morning exercise will be cancel and i dun have to run! well.. after that.. breakfast is served! and it will always be kaya and butter wif bread.. and a cup of hot milo.. thats wat i've been having for the past 3 months.. but im so used to it that it still taste the same as the first time i had it!
wel.. we will then have training and training.. theory or physical... all the way till watever time they like.. and of cos.. we do have break for lunches and dinner.. if time permits.. we will have a little admin time.. and wat do we do during admin time?
sleep
Eat
And some WRESTLING!
outfield trainings have been both physical and mentally demanding.. with the lack of sleep and time.. we had to absorb as much as we could within a short span of time.. but nevertheless.. it was a test of endurance and determination.. im glad i got past them getting tougher and more mentally prepared for the challenges ahead...
training outfield is not only abt learning things.. it is learning in a very dirty way.. dirty finger nails.. no toilet.. "public" latrine.. no brushing of teeth.. haha! u name it.. and we've done it.. hahahaaz!
keep digging
chiong ar!
time for a break!
after all these exercises.. its all abt standard obstacle course (soc) and ippt.. the soc was really tough for mi.. i clocked 11min 30 sec in bmt.. meaning i will have to cut 3 mins in order to pass it.. i was so scare i couldnt make it.. so on the day of the test.. i ran my heart out... almost outta breath.. i was jogging hard.. but my friends told mi i was taking a stroll round the park! the feeling of passing is way beyond description.. the moment i crossed the finishing line.. i collapsed on the side of the pavement.. and all the while i was thinking.. am i gonna die.. cos i really couldnt breath at all!
ippt wasnt worrying for me as im always able to get the silver as required.. i think for my pro term.. i will be able to reach gold.. its all in the mind!
well.. now to the highlight of the service term.. social night! it was an event many of us have been looking for.. the social night marks the end of a tiring term and it is also a fareware party for ppl like mi who are leaving for support arms.. for those who dont know.. this is an event that i think most of us will remember for a lifetime... well.. if not everyone.. at least for me.. its the milestone of a painful yet enriching journey..
i was quite disappointed that the event was to be held in the cadets' mess.. i have always hoped that it is somewhere else.. ok.. the day went really shitty as we were only allowed to book out at 3pm.. and things became really bad when we left at 4pm.. i have to rush to collect my car.. and had actually planned to pick up my date, sheryl.. but it was too rush.. so i had to ask her to take a cab back home..
it all din end here.. i rushed home and spent barely 10 mins before i have to leave home to pick up daniel, my platoon mate and of cos.. sheryl.. drove really fast and recklessly.. no excuses abt being reckless.. i will not drive recklessly again!
the event was actually quite boring.. but i would like to give credits to the organizing committee for they were given only limited resources and time to get things done.. and specials credits to amarpalllllll singh for entertaining us throughout the night...
anyway.. all was familiar with the games.. lucky draw.. games.. more luck draw.. and more games... haha! after the whole event.. we went to river valley to have a little bit of supper.. and then it was the end of everything.. which means.. home sweet home..
my platoon mates
well.. before i finish all these bullshitting.. i have to take a little space to thank my lovely date, sheryl..
im glad i was able to share this night with u.. firstly, i would like to apologise for having to ask u to take a cab back home.. secondly, thanks for being my date and for being a great company in a boring yet memorable event.. lastly.. i hope my surprise in the end did lift up the mood a little.. well.. if u ask mi.. i think it did.. cos i saw that beautiful smile that i've imagined.. once again.. thank you..
sheryl and me
this marks the end of my service term.. 6 more months to endure.. and on the 2nd of jan.. i will be leaving for brunei.. its not gonna be long.. but nevertheless.. i will miss singapore.. till then... bye!
posted by graky @ 11:43 AM   0 comments
update..
Saturday, December 24, 2005
had a great walk home after catching a movie.. the walk was cooling and familiar.. it has been a long time since i last caught a midnight movie alone..

ppl always think that im weird.. and i think so too.. haha.. but its those time that i actually could think abt stuff that i had not been touching for a long time.. the morning is cool and most importantly.. it is quiet.. something that i like once in awhile..

the walk was familiar becos i went past the secondary school i studied in.. the path i used to take to go home.. everything just came back to my mind again.. those fun and laughter.. i was a happier person then.. growing up changed mi alot.. then again.. i think i have learnt to be happy once more.. i was in depression for a long time.. and as far as im concern.. i still keep things within myself.. and walk like this certainly make mi feel better and my heart lighter..

well.. hope its gonna take a long time before i go for a walk again.. becos im really a lazy person! more updates coming up! needa upload my photos first!
posted by graky @ 3:14 AM  
updates
Thursday, December 22, 2005
got my senior bar ystd morning after the 24km route march.. and im outta safti mi heading to the signals instituite.. after 3 months of tough training, im finally outta alpha wing... its mixed feelings for mi.. sometimes, im happy to be heading to signals, and other times.. i wanna remain an alpha warrior... ya.. like sheryl mentioned, im contradicting..

nvm that... realised that my life now is all abt army army and army.. i dun even know the current affairs or wat is happening at home... i feel so outta place everywhere i go la.. even when im taking a cab.. feel so paisei when the taxi driver tok abt current affairs and im so blur la..

will be leaving for brunei come 3rd jan.. hoping that i can have a fruitful experience..
posted by graky @ 3:59 PM   0 comments
back
Sunday, December 04, 2005
finally.. after 8 days of tough training on the week wif a 16km route march as a finale.. im back in one whole piece!

the training was physically taxing.. sleep was minimum.. and the weather was wasnt forgiving.. the rain caused mi to lose so much sleep... imagine slping at 2am and the rain came pouring at 4am.. argh! standing in the middle of a vegetation in the middle the night wif ur gortex jacket on.. cold, hungry and missing home.. hahaha! pathetic!

all those are over now! and im so glad its over! the past week had been great.. passing my soc made it even better..

3 more weeks and it will mark the end of my service term.. which is the end of 1/3 of the whole course.. still am unsure if i will be staying in infantry or will be going to other support arms.. till then.. im proud to be an alpha warriors!

ABOVE, BEYOND, AS ONE! ALPHA!
posted by graky @ 3:13 PM   0 comments
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